Confessions of a Chocoholic
Yes, my name is Jennifer and I’m a chocoholic.
You know in an interview when they ask “What is your weakness?” and people say something silly like “chocolate” to avoid the real answer, well I mean it. I’m not exactly ready to check into Willy Wonka’s Recovery House, which by the way was created to appease the growing criticism and potential lawsuits born from chocolate addiction. I still have some degree of will power but increasingly find it difficult to resist.
If there is a table full of delectable desserts set out before me, my eyes gravitate to anything with the brown colour. Brownies, chocolate cake, cupcakes, nanaimo bars (those are an instant draw), donuts with chocolate on top, chocolate finger cookies, it doesn’t matter. My hand reaches out and snaps the sucker up as if I was a Venus fly trap. Don’t even get me started on the mesmerizing effect a chocolate fountain has on me.
A chocolate bar, dark chocolate being my favourite, calls to me from my cupboard. Like a person who smokes may need their cigarette after a meal, I need a piece of chocolate. Like those who need a cup of coffee to start their day, I need my chocolate to continue mine. As a reward for a job well done or hard days work, I grab that little piece of comfort and happiness to place on my ever grateful tongue. I tell myself I will only have a square a day but then something takes over and somehow I can justify the value of having three more.
I pay for it. My skin gets red and flushed, I can temporarily have a sugar high but still it hasn’t deterred me from wanting more. Admittedly, (or I’m just offering an excuse) I haven’t many other vices left. No smoking, no drinking except the occasional glass of wine with loved ones. I don’t drink coffee or anything with caffeine, I’m clean! I say, I’m clean!
Somehow though this delicious cocoa wrapped in a shiny wrapper continues to keep my attention. I crave it, so now I question whether I should do a sobriety test. Can I resist the temptation for one whole week? That’s the best I can do right now, we don’t need to go too far with this. Or will I fall apart like a half baked cookie?
I’m going to give it a shot! I will see if I have the power to take this on, rise to the challenge and know that I can conquer my demon on my own turf. Of course, I better tell my husband about this first so he won’t buy me another chocolate bar thinking that I’m out of my pacifier, plus he may need to brace for some withdrawal symptoms and secondly, somebody has to hold me accountable.
For those of you that may have a similar affliction, give me strength, send good energy, provide your words of wisdom in how to make it through. I have a feeling I’m going to need it and if I don’t those closest to me will.
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Ok…yes we have the same name! And I am a chocoholic too! In fact my husband pretty much forbade me from giving up chocolate this year for Lent! Said I was too hard to live with without my daily chocolate fix! Good luck giving it up this week! (Vanilla lattes help cure that craving…but just a bit!)
Maybe sharing the same great name was not enough so our addiction to chocolate would bring us to the same page
Good to hear from you and welcome to my blog.
It didn’t come to my attention until after I wrote my commitment to give up chocolate for one week that I was doing it over a time when cute little chocolate bunnies and eggs appear. Just like me to place myself right in the midst of temptation. Will see how my husband holds up over this time too, yours obviously recognized the dangers associated with chocolate removal.
Thanks for the support and luck. Stay tuned, I will let you know in one week how I did.
There will need to be an emergency supply of chocolate locked away somewhere. Call it “the Husbands: Emotion Liberation Protocol” or “HELP” for short. Used to mitigate the chaotic ups and downs of Wifey’s emotions during this trying time.
You are very lucky that I do not share such cravings so there won’t be any temptation around. And while you are welcome to try this chocolate fasting effort; there is a saying “…anything in moderation is OK…”. If it keeps the peace, moderation is a worthy goal to achieve as well.
However, now that you have challenged yourself to this week long task of self imposed chocolate suppression, you must answer it and be accountable. Otherwise….”you won’t learn nuthin’” Least of all, how important a little chocolate is to keeping Princess(and Prince) happy.
Good Luck!
Very Funny! Since you have not only outed “Wifey” (which is comical enough) in addition to disclosing the magnitude of my love affair and emotional dependence on chocolate to readers, I am now determined even more.
Now that I have taken up the gauntlet this royal couple is about to enter into unknown territory; my life without chocolate, the one week challenge.
I wish you the best of luck with this endeavor Jennifer, although why you feel you need to attempt it, I don’t know. My God, a person has to have some vices!! Life is just too freakin’ challenging without them and I’m pretty sure you won’t live much longer either. I drink coffee, alcohol, take extra strength ibuprofen almost daily, smoke the odd herbal rollie, and enjoy chocolate…all of them in moderation – at least most of the time – and not usually all at once! Does that make me a bad person? If I couldn’t have any of those things for a week, I would be very, very cranky indeed! I wouldn’t subject my poor dog to me in that state either.
Good luck to your hubby too!
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