Trashed post – Opened mind
For the first time in my blog history I have just got up and out of my bed to remove my own last post. I was very upset by the CTV’s (one of our local television stations) decision to air the crash and death of the luger from Georgia, on this celebratory Olympic day. Like many people who saw it, I was terribly hurt.
It took me some time after writing to realize why…..I don’t like the dark.
Sometimes in this world it is hard to keep your light burning. Dark colours, dark movies, dark comedy, dark clothing, dark news, dark shows, dark books and dark thoughts. People talk with me about protecting yourself from darkness by envisioning being surrounded by light but it is exhausting to do. I am highly in tune with my surroundings and therefore it takes a lot to shut out the noise.
It appears that there are tests for me to see how well I can keep focused on what I believe is my path. Today was that day, I failed. I gave my energy away and left nothing to nurture myself. Many of you may relate to this. It is my sincere hope that the coming months will be wrapped in a warm blanket of more love, more light, more laughter and more nature.
As I have gotten older I feel an even greater urge to run my hands over beautiful things, even the colours I’m attracted to have changed. Splashes of vibrant colours is something I crave, I took to orange some time ago and even my little Suzuki Swift is burnt orange. I rest my eyes more frequently on art, nature, words or music that washes me with a sense of serenity. Buying flowers gives me immense pleasure, I would have my home full of them if I could afford it.
I watch the birds fly in and out at my bird feeders and I talk to them as I go in and out my door. A squirrel or two has entered my garden everyday, along with raccoons to have me pause in my evening to remember I share this land. Most of what goes through my mind in one day is kept quietly locked up in this secret vault, it is my toy chest. When I have a day like today where dark people and dark things set to enter I go back and open “my” mind. I go to my soulful place where all that is good about living is safely stored and ready to remind me of my purpose.
Out my bed I rose to write this for me and for you. Its personal but hopefully it will encourage anyone who may read this, to find the things that make you, you and what makes you happiest. Time in a day is better spent in the light and then have the quietness of night to reflect on the magic of it all. Here’s to the people, places, creatures and things that bring light into this world!
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I love this personal blog Jennifer and can completely relate to your feelings. The world is filled with darkness and it’s important to remember to seek the light and beauty in all things in order to keep from sinking under the dark covers of despair. I stayed in bed this Sunday morning (a single woman ignoring Valentine’s Day) until about a half hour ago and read a book while the sun shines outside, enjoying my coffee and my beautiful dog at my side. The simple things in life are the ones we must learn to treasure. A walk in nature on a beautiful day always helps me to connect to my Higher Power and animals, flowers, soft music and sweet words always bring light my way.
We must never forget to run our hands and minds over the beauty we see in front of us every day because one day, we won’t be able to do it anymore. As spiritual beings having a human experience, our time in this physical realm is finite and should not be spent cowering in the darkness.
Happy Valentine’s Day.
Weekends, as I well recall, tend to be real downers, during some of these grey January and February days of drizzily rain. There always seemed to be so many happy couples out and about, walking arm in arm and re-enforcing my own loneliness.
That was back when I was single. I partially chose to resolve the problem by chosing to work weekends and taking my time off on Mondays and Tuesdays instead.
Although it is Valentines Day, husband, number 3, is on the weekend work rosta, today until 9 tonight…Ah, well cannot always win…At least I went out to the river and met my doggie people…They often lift my spirits!
Those marvellous Scots have projected the first few lines of a Love Poem, onto the rocks below Edinburgh Castle, for 24 hours..Gotta love them and their passionate souls!
Happy Valentines Day to you too! I have always loved those words “spiritual beings having a human experience.”
It can be challenging as a single person to find the joy in a partnered centered day. I remember when I was single I used to spend it with my dog too and even today wished her a Happy Valentines day in remembrance of her great love. I miss her. It also happens to be my fathers birthday though he passed away many years ago I send my love his way.
I guess really the day itself can be exactly as you shared, an opportunity to fall in love with the beauty that surrounds us. Though I had realized, prior to writing my post, that we are bombarded with darker views of life; it only has as much power as I’m willing to give it. I’m less and less inclined to spend any amount of time fueling it.
Thank you so much for your honest account of your day and feelings.
See, its us doggie people past and present that bring the world closer.
I never thought about the weekends that way, how incredibly interesting! It’s true, couples together and so were families. As a person without children I find the weekends troubling to navigate due to more tiny feet bounding about. Today, we went to a local Olympic venue I saw the children, family and lovers walking about. Besides the proud wearing of red and white there was a few roses held in the hands of a couple of men wrapped ready for their women.
No love poem on a rock here but that is inventive and romantic. Didn’t know those Scots were so into such displays of love.
Yes, my post garnered a couple of emails wondering what had got me reflecting on this subject of light vs dark. Best not to watch the news some days, I forgot my own rule. So, I guess what I have learned from the comments received is that we are all good at finding our way to the places that lift our spirits and if not we can just reach out and know we are understood.
Thanks also for sharing your world with me.
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